Breaking the Dam
I have had a strong desire to write for quite a while, but today is the day I pull the trigger and develop a routine habit of writing and sharing with the world via blogging. I was told about six or seven months ago that my throat vibrates with the will to speak, but I keep my lips sealed. These words penetrated into my consciousness and I have ruminated on them since they were uttered to me about seven months ago. Every time I thought about that statement it became truer and truer for me. Perhaps divine wisdom had entered into this person's mind and this was a message I was supposed to hear. Nonetheless, here I am, finally listening to those words and, ultimately, listening to my initial intuition and desire to write living in me for a handful of years. Maybe my inability to sleep at night is because my mind is busy sorting through the person I want to be in my life and comparing it to the person I think I have to be. The passion to write, to speak, to share, vibrating intensely in my body battles with the part of me that is afraid and finds it safer to remain silent, small, and safe in my corner of the world. This day, as dramatic as it may seem, has crossed my mind as a day of liberation from my old self of unloving self-talk and belittling thoughts to the freedom of just DOING IT and following my heart, my bliss, my intuition. I have prayed daily for God to lead me on His path and show me how I can live His will and glorify His name. While I hoped or even expected something monumental to occur, I realized I had to be silent and go within to hear His whisper. The desire to write and thereby choosing to be a consistent source of light in the world grew to a degree that I simply can no longer ignore or push back down into myself no matter how hard I try.
The following bible verse has been a constant reminder to me, “nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on the lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. Your light must shine before people in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven” (Matthew 5:15-16).
I have reached a point where my mind is profoundly busy with ways I can help people and inspiring messages and stories I want to share that it has become too overwhelming to hold in. I see that by holding back, I am actually being more inauthentic and untrue to myself than if I let go of all fear and excuses and chose to be free. So, my lips have broken their seal and I choose to let out all that lives within me. The dam I built to be so strong and sturdy has crumbled and the waters are flowing voraciously. This will be fun, easy, full of light and goodness.
I will share a new piece of writing every week on Monday. The subjects and content will change based on what I feel I am called to write about at the moment, including but not limited to, faith and scripture, business, philosophy, anecdotal stories, struggles, poetry, photography, book reviews, travel, food and fitness, and mental health. I guarantee you will always read something that is coming from my heart with good intentions. I do hope you read and find value or pieces of wisdom that you can take with you for the rest of your week. I encourage commenting and sharing, reposting, etc. Message me directly, ask questions, add your own wisdom!
Cheers to new beginnings!